I hate this
I hate myself
But I can't hate you.
I want you to be happy,
And miserable.
I hate seeing you happy,
when I'm so miserable.
I want you to want me again,
because I've always wanted you.
Even when I didn't show it,
and made you feel horrible.
I want you to forgive me,
but I'll never forgive myself.
I want to go back,
before everything started.
I want to not love you,
or miss you.
I hate her now,
and I hate everything that makes me think of her.
I hate that I'm jealous of her,
and it's all my fault.
Mainly, I'm so sorry,
that I can't get over you.